Decembersville Au...

Character list for my Decembersville Au that I said I wasn't going to write about but started anyway...

Mains:

Chimabell Von Pyre- King of Decembersville
Honestly does very little, he's a figure head, pretty much there to look pretty. Or, someone to show up and speak at events or meetings. Although he holds power as a king, he can't use it without his older siblings permission.Of course, no one outside the castle knows that.

Bella Von Pyre- Archduke of Decembersville
Runs the kingdom. Bella essentially does all the official work from taxes to law (on top of taking care of his younger brother and sister)
 Although he is the oldest  and should have been king, he handed the position down to his younger brother, knowing he'd have enough trouble just keeping Decembersville afloat without the added worry of having to make public appearances and look good for the people.

Campara Von Pyre- Grand Duchess of Decembersville
 Campara's responsibilities lie with her people. She's mainly in charge of listening to complaints or questions from the people, documenting them, and sending them off to Bella and his crew to be taken care of or filed. Work that she rarely does herself, usually having her own crew take care of it. Of course, when the situation calls for it (like someones being difficult or violent) she's there to clean house.
Campara also takes care of relations outside Decembersville, mainly who they keep up appearances with based on whoever the Meowsician feels it'd be wisest to keep tabs on.

The Meowsician- Royal Advisor
Decembersville's Royal Advisor. Pretty much has control of the country through the Von Pyres who seem to be very threatened by him but do not discharge him for reasons no one knows. His main goals (as well as he himself) are a mystery and to appose him, a danger. Many believe he is at fault for the long war between the humans and freaks.

Sophia Lilbette-The Human Princess
Princess of Decembersville's neighboring human country, was sent to the kingdom to be married to Chimabell as an act of peace for their countries. She's not happy in the slightest at being shipped from her home and having to marry the super creepy awkward vulture king, but understands its her duty as a princess to protect her people. But she's defiantly not happy about it.
On a lighter note, she ends up befriending many people, including her tutor, a servant, and one of the castle knights.

Pendulum Tin- Sophia's Tutor
One of  the very few remaining of an old noble family. Lost his title and was imprisoned during the war times when he claimed the Von Pyres were wasting tax money on frivolous things for themselves (which they were) instead of on the armies and safety measures for the country. To add insult to injury, he was hired by Bella Von Pyre to be the human Princess' home tutor.
Tin's 'tutoring' mostly consists on teaching Sophia the do's and don'ts of Decembersville among its history and traditions. Sophia finds his lessons to be quite boring, however, and he spends most of his time chasing her around the castle trying to make her attend them, only to give up and play games with her.
...He's a glorified baby sitter.

Zero- A Servant
 Zero is a servant working in the Von Pyres castle. He mostly cuts wood for the many grand fireplaces. He's a very well known and liked member of the community. When Sophia first comes to the castle, she runs off and hides in the wood shed, where she cries and wishes she could go back home. Zero finds her and ends up comforting her, even becoming one of her closest friends.
Chima becomes rather jealous of Zero after awhile because he can so easily make Sophia happy and ends up making him one of his personal servants just to mess with him.
Zero is also friends with Tin and Melloni.

Melloni Collie- a Knight
Second in command of Decembersville's knights. The knights are actually a pretty shifty gang and sell valuables and armory from the castle for quick cash. Many people find them crooks. Mellon ends up meeting Sophia during one of his rounds and they don't exacly see eye to eye at first. She quickly grows on him, however, and he starts to spend alot of time with her, Tin, and Zero.

Secondary Characters

Darkslaw- Leader of a Rebellion
Was previously a servant under Chimabell Von Pyre. United humans and freaks to stop a war and succeeded. Many people consider him a hero for finally doing what no one else dared and go against the Von Pyres successfully. Other believe he's bringing ruin to Decembersville, having lost family and friends to humans.
Darkslaw was the one who suggested to the human kingdom they send their princess to Decembersville as a means of peace, to show his people humans aren't evil. He comes to check up on Sophia every now and then to make sure the Von Pyres aren't harming her in anyway, as was the agreement with the human kingdom.


Count Merry- A Count of Decembersville
 A count owning quite a bit of land in Decembersville. His wife was murdered brutally by humans from the neighboring country and bears a very vivid hate for the. When he hears they've taken in a human princess, he becomes very enraged (as were a lot of citizens) and threatens the Von Pyres/Sophia at her welcoming ball...
Later when Sophia starts running around the main town disguised as a freak she meets Merry again at the cemetery his wife is buried at (oh imgaine that yo) and befriends him.

Emmyli- Head KnightThe head of the Decembersville knights and Melloni's older brother.

Darkchovi- A pub owner
Runs a pub in town and is Darkslaw's older brother. The knights constantly come by for free drinks, which he detests. Zero, Tin, and Mellon bring Sophia and stop by frequently. There's a rumour going round that he's on good terms with The Meowsician... 

Razz Matazz- Theater Owner
Runs a very flashy theater in town. There are rumors going round that he abducts girls to perform there, but rumors are rumors, no one knows for sure.

Decembersville has soooo many characters.... Im tired of writing descripts for them all XD
I'll put another post with everyone else up later.

Ever Fire concept talk

Wrote the first pages of a short story called 'Ever Fire' earlier... I think it's pretty neat.
It's pretty much about an 1800's style of westernized people who live in a huge town in the middle of a mythical forest. As one might assume, the 'mythical' forest is overrun with creatures of lore and most aren't too friendly with the human town (which is called 'Auberwood' by the way)
So the people of Auberwood built this giant wall completely surrounding the town. The only way out is the grand gate that was once open for vendors and travelers but has since been sealed shut.
The story follows Emily Green, a 10 year old girl of Auberwood. She contracts a fatal disease that the towns doctor has no cure for and is banished from Auberwood, for fear that others might catch her disease. Emily is left alone in the forest to die of her disease or be killed by some sort of creature.
But there's still hope for the child. A dear friend of hers called Ebony tells her about a flower called the 'Ever Fire'. Consuming a petal of the flower is supposed to cure any illness or wound. But the whole flower, when consumed, can grant eternal life. So it's very violently fought over and searched for.
Emily begins a journey to find the Ever Fire that eventually lead her to running with a forgotten Faerie King, a dishonored Knight, twin Brownies, and an old Gwin.
It's been awhile since I did a simple adventure type story... This is gonna be fun~<3

Fan Art stuffs, it's been too long...

Fan art tiiime~ <3

It took me three times but I FINALLY managed to successfully draw Heen. By successful I mean I'm satisfied the way she turned out in this one (and her face, I love everything about her face). Sigmo, however, destroyed me. Little pieces of ego are laying shattered around my drafting table somewhere because I was destroyed. I spent forever on him too... But I'm just not as happy with how he turned out as I am with Heen.

Though I had too much fun with Heens hair and it's all super curly...

This is a fan art btw, these two beauties belonging to a fabulous madam referred to as Andi. Her blogs thisa way -> http://andisworks.blogspot.com/

I don't even know what to title this...

Drawn by Andi Espinosa, (or others might know her as Countandra on Deviantart) my character Musca Domestica. Main character from a graphic novel I'm working on called Fly Girl. This was like a ten dollar commission, can you believe that?? I feel like I should have paid more... I always feel that way about the commissions I request though XD
I just absolutely loooove this drawing and I hope she doesn't get mad that I'm throwin' it up here. Not that she'd probably ever even find out. My blogs are a public secret after all XD
But anyway, it's absolutely gorgeous no? I just wanted to talk about it a little since I never really got the chance to show it off to anybody X3.
That and I wanna talk about her hair. I mean, goodness to gracious, I could go on about every thing in this forever and what not (Though Andi could have drawn her as a stick figure and I'd probably still love it.) But after looking it at it more carefully, her hair kinda sticks out in my field of vision.
Mostly because I can't really tell if she drew her with short hair, or if her hairs just tucked behind her wings. Either way it doesn't bother me or make me love it any less, I just don't know and that kind of pokes at me. But I got to thinking the other day since she's looks absolutely adorable in this pic, and her hair does look short, she might look good with short hair.
So I drew her in 20's clothes a couple times with that short-ish bob style and I really liked it : 3
I'm not changing her design, I've worked on her design for mooonths and I'm not changing it now on a whim, but I did decide there's going to be a part where her hair gets chopped off by Congrua so I'm in the process of drawing a second design page with her short hair. I'm sucha dork I swear.
Well back to work and such, I've got a GPA to pull outta the trash.

Graduation blah blah

Soo this week is all about Cora catchin' up her GPA. Me catching up my GPA. Ya know. So I can graduate. You know. Yeah.
Been drawing some Fly Girl stuff... And I'm still surprised by the how many people like her online. When people see her in my sketchbook they're all 'oh gross' but online everyones like 'She's Adoraaable!'
. 3 .
And while I'm totally happy that people like her, I didn't really make her to be cute . _ .
I mean, the chibi's yeah, but when I draw her serious like... Cause one of the whole points of 'Fly Girl' is that even creepy looking weird people can have hearts of gold, that being different is ok. So she's not supposed to look pretty or lovely. That defeats the purpose of being 'abnormal and strange'. XD

But I don't have time to scan stuff. As soon as I get off work tonight I've gotta work on my chemistry and Geometry and I've been so far behind in both that I'm doing at least a months worth of work in three days.
Next week is graduation and I'm freaking the fuck out.
I'm graduating. I never in a million years could of imagined I'd get this far people. Like... Oh...Shit I'm graduating.
They're going to be releasing me into the world. Everyone should be mildly frightened. XD

Annoyed.

Been drawing alot of Gams lately. She's the easiest to draw of the Abnormalities because of her body proportions. It's so hard for me to draw realistic proportions, which I try to do sometimes, but everything always comes out...off....But my art friends and online people are all like "it's just your style, madam."
But it's not whats in my head and that's whats the problem. Oh hell I'm happy with the paper results, but I'm never satisfied. Like a house wife or something. That's not a good analogy, I know.

I've got a shit ton of work to do and no will power to do it. I've literally given up on school but forcing myself to get through it because, A, if I don't I'm going to loose my scholarship/not graduate. And B my parents won't shut uppppp... Like really. My mother tried to bribe me with food yesterday.
I about told her to take it back because I'm not going to do tricks for treats like a dog or something and then she and my step-dad got into a fight because he didn't think it was fair that I was getting rewarded for turning my work in late while the other kids get grounded and she's just like 'well I don't know what else to do' blah blah blah...
And as far as I was concerned the whole situation was annoying as hell and resulted in me getting screamed at for the rest of the night. (sighs)
 Just gotta remind myself there'll be plenty of time to do nothing this summer. Work hard now, fool around later. Or become a hobo.
Well better get started on my homework... I'm tired as all hell get out.

Pathetic Little Rant About Some Stuff

Stayed home from school today because I woke up in intense pain and couldn't hear out of the left side of my head. I've got another ear infection, yippee. They're gonna be so pissed at work but there's no way I can go in today...(sighs)
Yesterday was atrocious between me crying off and on all day and having crazy mood swings and then getting online and realizing I'm the most ridiculous person on earth. The world has enough problems and no one wants to listen to mine. That and I've sort of given up with online emotional support. People always ask me whats wrong when I'm all depressed but when I tell them they either don't respond and I never really hear from them after that or they're just like 'oh I'm so sorry'. And that just depresses me even more.
I mean, I know I don't have the worst family life out there and believe me, I don't want that. I'm not trying to get into a 'whose life is worse' competition with anyone because... I mean, imagine winning at something like that? It's just... So pathetic...
I guess I just wanted to know that maybe the way my family behaves is normal. That this is what all family's go through at some point. But from what I can tell when I reach out to anyone online, we're pretty fucked up.  I just... I feel like I try and help everyone I know all the time, like I always try to be there for my friends and my family.
For godsake I was extremely pissed at my sister the other day... She was bawling in her room because she got her phone taken away and was afraid my parents would find out about all the drugs and sex she's been having lately, and I went down stairs to comfort her. She was in the fucking wrong and I still held her hand and told her to calm down or she'd go into an asthma attack, which she did and I helped her with that too.
This kid has been calling me a bitch every time I piss her off slightly, only wants me around when I can drive her somewhere or buy something, and has completely fucked over my senior year. But as her big sister I still try to be there for her. She told me the other day she hated me and wanted me to move out already.

And then there's the whole issue with my dad who has barely even been there for me at all this year. He refuses to come see me during visitation days or when I get off work because he doesn't want to spend the gas to come see me. But he'll drive all the way across town every week to pick up my sister.
He's been promising me all year we were going to go to House on the Rock up in Wisconsin. It's my favorite place in the world, it's like my Disneyland or something... He told me a week or so ago that we're not going. We can't fit it in alongside the canoeing and kayaking stuff he wants to do and the Chicago trip. I was never told we were going to any of those places but apparently it's because he wanted to do something different. So that meant cutting out what he's promised for the past six or eight months.
I'm not even angry. I was never angry. Because you know what? He's done this to me all my life. When I was a kid I used to do everything from horse back riding to ice skating and none of those things ever lasted more than a few weeks because he didn't have the money. As a kid, I was never upset with him about those things either. I was happy enough to get to do them at all.
My freshman year of high school I told my dad I wanted to go to art school and he told me he'd do whatever it takes to get me there. My moms working her ass off at a minimum wage job as a secretary to a law firm that treats her like shit just so she can help me out with my housing fees. My dad has yet to even ask about my tuition fees. And I'm going to the college that's 15 minutes away from my house.
He's told me I didn't have to get a job because he'd pay for anything I wanted. Lies. He told me he'd pay for my gas once I got a car. Lies. And then there' s the college thing that he still claiming he's going to do something about...
Just and all the while I've just smiled and said 'it's ok. He's got the best intentions so its ok'. But's not. It's fucking disappointing and it's built up over time. That and how he never even once said he was sorry. About any of those things. He just justifies why its ok that he did them and I'm left feeling like I'm in the wrong. Like how dare I be upset with him for not keeping his promises. How dare I think badly of his crazy wife who used to get drunk and shout at me and my little sister or told me that my father was her husband before he was my father and his house was her house and I had no right to live there or see him if I didn't follow their values when I told my mom how uncomfortable it made me that she was trying to push Christianity down my throat.
...I'm just really fed up with my family. I'm done with work. I'm done with school. I'm done with everyone acting like I have no right to feel because they have enough problems. I'm sorry everyone seems to be going through a tough time and I want to help but it seems when I'm done helping, they don't even want to hear if I have something going on.
I feel used, hurt, tired, angry, disappointed, sad, and over all unloved. Its like I'm the scum of the earth for being me. And I wish it would stop. I don't see that happening though...

Abnormalities stuff

I added four new characters to the Abnormalities that will be appaearing in there at some point. Yeah, I made it a project. It pretty much took a life of its own and now its smacking every other project I want to work on, like Cirque du Minuit and Fly Girl, outta my hands. Nothing I can do, I draw whatever I feel like after all XD
I will describe them in order of appearance and by their stage names : 3
First up,
The Tiger Girl.
Or Landi. Landi is a five year old child who hails from the deep jungles of Africa. She was either abandoned by her parents, or they were killed in the ruthless terrain, but either way she was left alone as a babe. Connie, who was ten at the time, was a performing tiger for Rigby Circus. Harvel, the sleazy ring master, had her only cub sold off and killed for a pretty penny and so Connie was extremely depressed for a time. When the circus went traveling in Africa to find more members, Connie escapes her cage and wanders through the jungles and eventually finds baby Landi, alone and dying. Connie takes Landi home with her to the circus and begins rearing her as her own. Several attempts to remove the child from Connie's care became futile (the tiger trainer lost his hand) and she was allowed to keep her newest little cub. Landi spends her five years of life raised as a tiger by her adoptive mother and eventually is put in the circus as a 'Tiger Girl'.
When the Abnormalities trio find Landi and Connie, Connie is an old tiger who has lost her teeth from malnutrition and abuse and Landi is treated like an animal. Peeps makes it his mission to save the two from Harvel Rigby's circus and make them well treated members of the Freak Show.

Swimmy.
Swimmy isn't a part of the show, he's the running support. Swimmy sets up the stage and manages their very little finances. Swimmy...is a veery strange character. He has an obsession with things that are 'interesting'. And 'interesting' mostly means outside the norm. He just loves to observe the way of those who are not accepted in society and has a very strange love for them. The group themselves don't really know if he's truly a friend or someone they should be watching out for. Swimmy compares everything to his really creepy collection of pet leeches. He feels an affinity for them since he has an iron deficiency and has to orally take in blood. Swimmy's not all there...

And last but not least, Fire Bug.
Fire Bug's real name is Katydid but everyone calls her Bug. Bug grew up an orphan in South Africa but was adopted by a well off family with time on their hands when she was 12. As a kid, she would do tribal dancing with a mask she fashioned, on the street for money...
 Never feeling like she belonged in the states with her rich family, At 17 years old she meets the Abnormalities and wants to run away to join their freak show. Her act consists of the old dance she used to do as a child only to its true potential. Its a wicked fire dance called 'Sun Waving' consisting of a hula hoop and two staffs.
Her act is powerful and involves drums to keep her in rythm, the only draw back is her mask. Once the mask is on, 'Katydid' takes a back seat. She's goes into a state of being one with something mystic that neither she nor anyone else quite understands. But it's dangerous. Fire Bug has to have a five meter circle drawn around her as a warning to others. If anyone steps into the circle, the dance has been violated and she will attempted to take down who ever has done so. She nearly decapitates Landi when the child is attracted to her fire and runs out without thinking. Because of the dangers her dance posses, Gams doesn't want her to be a part of the group but is over ruled by Chomps who has taken to her and her act.

So thats the new comers. Working on their designs, except Swimmy who is a recycled character : D
I'm so tired.

Deviantart's dead/I'm deead

My deviantart is soooo deeead. For awhile my account was like boomin'. No joke, I was getting more watchers and page views than I knew what to do with. But mostly because of fanart. . 3 .
You tend to forget no one really cares how you draw personally, they just enjoy seeing their fav characters. I had some people come to enjoy my art as a result though and that's all I can really ask for : )
Doesn't help soothe my bruised ego of course that now when I submit a deviation it gets like...one or two page views and no favs.
Of course everyone I talk to is like 'as long as you think it's good, it doesn't matter how well it does online'.
While that's true, but I personally just feel awesome if someone thinks something that I created is awesome too. I'm an art whore, I feel like if I put alot of work into something I should show it off X3
Keep getting in trouble for sleeping in class because I snore really loud... Unfortunatly there's nothing I really care to do about it. I get enough sleep at night, I honestly don't know whats wrong with me because I never have this problem at home. I'm so ready to graduate dammit.

More of The Radium

Line art of The Radium and his Scarlet Battalion I did a few months ago. I colored it a loong time ago and then lost the whole file and haven't had the heart to touch it since. Figured I'd at least post it some where, I was pretty proud of it at the time.

The Radium

I used water color on this instead of markers and I was so completely proud of it. Of course then my ego tanked when I submitted it to Deviantart and it got like no response. Probably won't get any. This is what happens when I try. 

Interesting Weekend

Had an interesting weekend...
So my mother pulled me aside last weekend and told me we suddenly had enough money to pay for housing for me once I go to college (as long as it was under around $400 a month) and I was like cool. But I had my doubts. Usually when these things are said to me they're followed up with a 'oh Cora we can't do that anymore'. So surely enough a few days later I was told just that. They don't actually have the money, something came up, I'm on my own again.
I don't really care about that either. I never asked them or anyone else to help me out with college. And if it just so happened they could, that's fantastic! But, to put it frankly, my familys pretty damn poor. We're not like dirt poor like we used to be where a trip to Mickey D's was like a five star restaurant big deal, but we're in a huge amount of debt. So I never expected anyone to be able to help me.
It's just that whole building up my hopes only to shoot them back down. Thats what I hate. And all my parents do it. My dad and his wife especially. They love to promise me shit only to go back on their word. They always have the best intentions, I know, but I'm so tired of it. Why can't everyone just admit we're shit broke and tell me I'm on my own already? Why do they have to insistently let their guilt towards me get in the way of our reality.
I don't ask for much, if anything, but they act like I'm making them pocket the stars and moon... I'm just tired of it.
I got to have a groggy late night conversation with an artist I really respect on saturday/sunday. Sometimes when your all wrapped up in how amazing the artist is, you tend to forget, in the end, they're just a person like yourself XD I only say that because she seriously acts just like how my best friend used to so it was like crazy deja vu all night long. She's a cool chick.

I've been sort of thinking about all sorts of things lately too. I think maybe the reason I don't really have alot of friends is because people expect me to be this certain type of person when they first meet me then as they get to know me, they realize I'm just an average dork and it disappoints them. And so they sort of drift away from me. I kind of hope that isn't true but the evidence is hard to look away from.
(sighs) Well I'm done spewing nonsense for the day...

D-Ville Family 2

I don't know whether I want to make my little D-Ville family into just a cute pic based off my personal character analysis' or make a mini comic off it or write a fan fiction. I don't know. I think all of thee of abooove~ <3
XD
I'll make a poll.

D-Ville Family

I drew most of the main Decembersville characters as a giant family. Labeled their roles and everything. I feel achieved for the day. When I have time, I'll scan it and put it in this post...
For now...
Tiny Post!!!

Abnormalities Talk

So I've been distracting from seriously working Fly Girl by some random oc's I came up with the other day, The Abnormalities. Especially today since I made two new kiddo's to join in their very loosely put together world.
I don't even know what I'm going for with them, it's like...Ugh.
But the newbys are Olivia Todd and Simon Von Mitternacht who are a ghastly pair. Simon being a horrible creature thing and Olivia a teen murderess and all.
Though, and this is weird for me, they're antagonists to The Abnormalities...
I guess I should explain a little about it. The story follows three freaks of the earth and their misadventures. Chomps, Peeps, and Gams.
Chomps is a 23 year old former con artist whose got an eccentric personality and a crazy amount of large sharp jagged teeth. Peeps is a 16 year old misfit with a grotesquely huge right eye. He was orphaned at a young age ( he refuses to go into detail about when and what happened)  and has been his towns cast off ever since. Gams is a 19 year old runaway who can't stand her home town on account that everyone makes fun of her because she's 7 and half feet tall and could out do even the most nimble acrobat.
They all get together some way or another and Chomps is their unofficial leader. He's decided that they're going to gather creeps and weirdos from all over and make their very own Freak Show because as far as he's concerned if they're going to be judged and persecuted for being 'abnormal' they might as well make some cash while they're at it.

At some point in their journey for more troupe members, they meet Olivia who has just had a sticky fight with her dearest friend, Simon, and left his care. Olivia is fascinated by the trios life style and wants to join the ranks of their freak show but is denied by Chomps who believes she is much too normal looking to be among the strange.
Unfortunately for the three, Olivia is a quite brutal murderess with a bad temper. She feels Chomps has insulted her extremely and attacks him viciously. Peeps and Gams effectively save their friend in the end and the trio escape Olivia and her demented little town; Leaving the teen to sulk and fester in anger that she was not only 'insulted' but denied her kill. She runs home to her friend Simon (who had been watching her in secret the whole time) and tells him about how poorly she was mistreated by people that should of understood her best. The two then decide to make their new game finding and killing The Abnormalities.

. 3 . I believe this is the first time I've made antagonists and decided straight out that's what they were going to be. Because mostly its just that they were side characters that I eventually made villains. But this pair are goodness to gracious straight out bad guys that I never had any intention making good. They're, like the other three, alot of fun.
I have to do something with this now because it's just so fun.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

A nightmare...

I had this really awful dream last night at like 4 in the morning...
I don't even really understand where it came from but it made me feel like a loser.
Like it was weird. My favorite artist drew my character Musca Domestica and then went on a rant about how awful she was as a character and how anything her creator probably makes is terrible... And then accused me of basing little Musca off one of her own characters. It nearly broke my heart.
 Like I woke up wondering if it was really a dream or something that actually happened while I was sleeping or if maybe it was a forewarning of some sort. I don't know. Maybe it's anxiety because I did commision her to draw Musca for me, by my Fly Girl is something I came up with a good 2 years ago after reading Salem Brownstone. Cause one of the villains was a fly man and I was like 'oh thats so cool, I'd kind of like to try that'. And I did... Then I abandoned her after drawing her like 3 times, then drew her for fun a few months ago and I really like her now...
Maybe its just cause I've been having problems motivating myself when it comes to drawing (or really anything) lately. I kind of feel useless all the time. But seriously, I feel that enough when I'm awake. Why in vivid dream mode too? Jeebs...

Fan art dribbling...

Started inking 'Lights' today.
Its a fan art pic of Campara von Pyre and Pendulum Tin from Decembersville, based off my favorite chapter.
I forget what number it is but it's the one when Campy finally realizes that the Sun Conjurer that she and her brothers  threw to the Chopping Place (a really horrible prison) awhile back and not before killing his whole family (I know for sure one of his sisters is alive, I don't know about the others) is Tin. Tin is practically one of the first people she's ever somewhat cared about probably ever. It's been a few months since I read the chapter so it's kind of fuzzy, don't hold me to that.
But pretty much, she gets thrown into this tornado of torn up feels. Like she can't understand why Tin was so nice to her after what her family did to him and she's extremely guilty because well... She loves Tin. I don't think it's officially in a 'Romantic' sense, cause for awhile I was pretty sure they were headin' down that road and then the creator said something on tumblr about how she doesn't understand why everyones just assuming they're together and while it makes me sulky, I like to stick with what's canon over my fan girlisms. But I want to think she does love him. If anything, as someone she very much so cares about.
It's just like this moment of clarity for her, where she suddenly realizes she has to take responsibility for her actions and inaction's of the past toward her town because they've resulted in many people getting hurt. People like Tin.
I hated seeing poor Campara get jostled around and put down by the Rebels cause she's my favorite character. And though she sorta deserved it, I still wanted to smack Wonka and the others upside the head for making her cry.
But she did deserve a wake up call. ....Still wanna smack Wonka. I think I'll draw it. Yep. I'm gonna draw it.

But 'Lights' was sort of my way of showing off Campara's torn feels toward Tin. I think it's looks awesome so far you know except for the face that Campy looks like a fucking princess.
(sobs) I didn't catch it until it was too late! I made her look like a princess! I hate it when I do stupid fuck ups like that...
Eh. Whatever. I'll probably finish that in a couple days though : )
Yay, first Decembersville rant on mah blog! There will probably be more...

Miss Cupid Returns

Miss Cupid, a reeeeeally old oc. I'm thinking I'll put this on Deviantart later but at the same time I'm reluctant to because it's been awhile since I've done anything...Horror. And MC is one scary bitch. But I think I will anyway, since alot of people are being blinded by the cute fluff I keep submitting.

The Abnormalities

From left to right: Chomps (Fortunato Ricci), Gams (Jacquelyn Doors), Peeps (Theodore Gats)

Soo these three have become my new favorites. They're fun. I haven't decided what I want to do with them, if I do anything. I pretty much modeled them after the words they're named after... Yup. I'm done.

Frustrations

So today's been like one of those in between ok and bad days. I don't really know what to think honestly. I'm frustrated by school, I'm just ready to get out of here. I found out the other day I have to take the AP Exam, which is like a $90 test that I don't even want to take.
And it's for literature. My teach gave me a practice packet to go through and I get credit for doing it instead of the quizes for a book we're reading in class right now but I swear these prompts are destroying my brain...
Ugh, I'm just super frustrated.

Still haven't heard anything back about my commision. I don't care how long she takes drawing it, I've never cared about that kind of thing. As long as I get it at some point I'm cool, but I'd like to at least know she got my information. Only reason I'm bugging about it is because until I know I've got everything with her sorted out, its going to be on my mind. It's like a little cherry on top of the calamity sundae that is my life right now. Artist block continues to plague me, still forcing myself to draw anyway.... I don't have time to take breaks.

Been listening to Nirvana, Nevermind, like insanely in my car these last few days and while I generally like every song on the album, my favorite has to be 'Something in the Way'.
I was in a  mood yesterday and just drove around town listening to it on repeat. We had our first official spring rain. It made everything smell really nice outside but it got super sticky and humid.
 My house was burning up. I feel like sucha baby cause it was only 80 degrees. I don't know what I'm going to do once summer hits...
I bought two baby cacti. Bubba and Gladys. They're adorable.
Something in the way time....

Great Gatsby movie 2013

So something I'm really looking forward to and really anxious about is the new Great Gatsby movie.
I've read the novel like five times and it's one of my favorites. The whole theme of the Roarin' 20's you know? Living the American Dream only to realize, yes, it's nothing but a dream.
I'm reallly excited and I feel kind like a dork because just looking at the pictures and trailers I already knew who every single character was....
But I'm also afraid I'm going to go see this movie and, like almost every other book I've read and then went go see the movie, its going to fuck it all up to hell. Well I've got my fingers crossed.

 

ARGH

I keep embarrassing myself when messaging people. Or at least  one person today. I bought a commission from my fav artist like 3 weeks ago (maybe longer) and she messaged me on saturday saying she still hadn't gotten my info for my commish.
I sent that shit four days after I paid her .____.
I wasn't mad or anything, I'm still not mad. I mean, I didn't really have a reason to be or anything. Since it was mostly my fault anyway. My computer and tumblr have been dukin' it out lately (messages don't like to send, sometimes my posts get all fucked to hell...) and I just assumed she got my info. I didn't want to send another message asking if she got it because I didn't want to bother her... (sighs) THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I'M CONSIDERATE OF OTHERS.
But I was freaking out too...
I was so worried she'd be all like 'Dude. You've had forever, I'm not doing this shit anymore, you're out ten bucks.'
I was near tears sunday because I sent her the 3rd message asking if she'd gotten my reply and I was all antsy and panicky because...COME ON, you can't tell me you wouldn't freak the fuck out if you thought your favorite artist would become annoyed with you and black list you on DA/tumblr. .____. I reread that statement and I think I give myself too much credit but I'm always ready to expect the worst.
That and I was like sporadically apologizing in eveeery single on of my messages and when people do that to me I'm like 'Bro. Bro chill. You're fine' and it's this...whole awkward thing.
...
I think I need to take a break from the Internet for awhile.

Here We Go : )

Well damn, another blog.
I'm not going to introduce myself or anything, I've got a profile for that, and this is more so for notes or stupid stuff that just happens to be goin' on in me life.
But I have decided I'm going to make a blog for all my major projects right now. Because while I'm busy trying to piece together the atrocity that is Fly Girl, I have other things I also want to work on too. There are two others that I want to bring to light, Cirque Du Minuit and Radio Head.
Radio Head is defiantly not anything I plan on really working on though, because the storyline is shaky and aloooot of it has yet to be defined. I'm thinking of actually just polishing it down to the characters I like to draw and working with them. Meh, we'll see.
Cirque Du Minuit is actually what I'd like to be primarily working on right now instead of Fly Girl. I have that thing mapped out from beginning to end, I've just been sort of adding things in lately though. I need to practise some realism too so  I can draw my scenery. Loooots of scenery in that thing. I don't know how I'll survive it which is why I'm mainly focusing on Fly Girl...
Thought Fly Girl is hard too since all the beginning chapters involve me drawing crazy realistic insects...
But anywhoo~
I perfer blogger more than my Deviantart so I may just update here from now on. Yup, one update a day, everyday X3
Ok I'm done.