Annoyed.

Been drawing alot of Gams lately. She's the easiest to draw of the Abnormalities because of her body proportions. It's so hard for me to draw realistic proportions, which I try to do sometimes, but everything always comes out...off....But my art friends and online people are all like "it's just your style, madam."
But it's not whats in my head and that's whats the problem. Oh hell I'm happy with the paper results, but I'm never satisfied. Like a house wife or something. That's not a good analogy, I know.

I've got a shit ton of work to do and no will power to do it. I've literally given up on school but forcing myself to get through it because, A, if I don't I'm going to loose my scholarship/not graduate. And B my parents won't shut uppppp... Like really. My mother tried to bribe me with food yesterday.
I about told her to take it back because I'm not going to do tricks for treats like a dog or something and then she and my step-dad got into a fight because he didn't think it was fair that I was getting rewarded for turning my work in late while the other kids get grounded and she's just like 'well I don't know what else to do' blah blah blah...
And as far as I was concerned the whole situation was annoying as hell and resulted in me getting screamed at for the rest of the night. (sighs)
 Just gotta remind myself there'll be plenty of time to do nothing this summer. Work hard now, fool around later. Or become a hobo.
Well better get started on my homework... I'm tired as all hell get out.

The Radium

I used water color on this instead of markers and I was so completely proud of it. Of course then my ego tanked when I submitted it to Deviantart and it got like no response. Probably won't get any. This is what happens when I try. 

Frustrations

So today's been like one of those in between ok and bad days. I don't really know what to think honestly. I'm frustrated by school, I'm just ready to get out of here. I found out the other day I have to take the AP Exam, which is like a $90 test that I don't even want to take.
And it's for literature. My teach gave me a practice packet to go through and I get credit for doing it instead of the quizes for a book we're reading in class right now but I swear these prompts are destroying my brain...
Ugh, I'm just super frustrated.

Still haven't heard anything back about my commision. I don't care how long she takes drawing it, I've never cared about that kind of thing. As long as I get it at some point I'm cool, but I'd like to at least know she got my information. Only reason I'm bugging about it is because until I know I've got everything with her sorted out, its going to be on my mind. It's like a little cherry on top of the calamity sundae that is my life right now. Artist block continues to plague me, still forcing myself to draw anyway.... I don't have time to take breaks.

Been listening to Nirvana, Nevermind, like insanely in my car these last few days and while I generally like every song on the album, my favorite has to be 'Something in the Way'.
I was in a  mood yesterday and just drove around town listening to it on repeat. We had our first official spring rain. It made everything smell really nice outside but it got super sticky and humid.
 My house was burning up. I feel like sucha baby cause it was only 80 degrees. I don't know what I'm going to do once summer hits...
I bought two baby cacti. Bubba and Gladys. They're adorable.
Something in the way time....